Hey, Strong Human!

So, Mahatma said this...Allah knows, that i have tried my best to forgive while holding on my tears.

As a sensitive and moody person, i always protecting my heart from being hurt, so i quite much not like No Action, Talk Only people, i do not like people that talk too much but non sense or not have 'fill' in the sentences nor conversation then of course i am not doing much social activity in social life as social creature. But, to survive (stay alive), i should can do this, i should face those people. As human, we should can do adaptation with any environments and meet different people, but, do not forget, you have right to be happy, you have right to rest when you feel so tired and drained, just press pause button, then, absolutely, you have right to quit these activities (Rd. quit activities NOT your life, mind it!) then go to people that care with you, remember, there is always 1 person or creatures that love you, you are loved as always.

Friends, you and me are good person, truly, it because you get what you give, what goes around comes around, if you do good then good will come to you, it's the law of attraction, that's why we have a chance to meet and crossing our path, we have conversation even so little, we can know each other, am i right?, i love you just the way you are, that's okay for being the real you with me,...i know how you feel...this is our first time to be human, we had no experience before, so, it's normal if we make mistake, i know how it feels being anxiety, depression and stress, should handling so much problems in same time, then one time have no money nor energy, you may believe it or not, you may trust me or not, but that's the reasons, that's why...that's why, i don't want to adding it to your life...if i tell you about your mistake, it because i want you to have more beautiful life than me, i don't want to see you down or continue do that then totally...being a bad person. I understand, i can feel it too. So, please give up blaming yourself or others, all of us...is only human, we are only human, we can't turn back time, but we can always solve it, improve it or...do a new start, a new beginning, a new journey, right?. I want to always cheers on you, be good friend for you, so thank you for accepting me, still being my friends and stay, thank you for your existence in my life, i really appreciate and feel grateful.

Some of you will says; "not all people understand or accept our good intention, they might hate us, say rude thing to us, do cruel things to us...", i feel it too..it (ever) happened to me too..i understand your thoughts, but, at least, if you did that, you can telling yourself that you are different from that person and you have did your best, that's enough, you did a good job, you did well...don't let cruel world make you be a bitter person, it's ok to keep distance from toxic people and environment, but, let's we do our best to spread love and kindness, let's be happy together, let's feel more alive and have peace of mind together...let's being good person, if you can't do that to stranger, at least for ourselves, families and friends together.

Conclusion :

All of us in only human, no matter what's your religion, your ethnic and who you are. We are, definitely, only human. There is a time that i couldn't accept you because i do not like your attitudes or words and there will be a time you couldn't accept me, because of my acts too. That's okay, we need time to heal, stay away or leave then give or ask apologize. It's a fact that we should face as a human, we are unique, everybody has different opinion, there will always be pro and contra, everyone has plus minus, but, that doesn't mean we should being hatred toward each other. Mind it, Peace of Mind is the main things, it will give positive vibe and energy to live this life, so, it will be a better place to make a better life as a better person to stop arguing and have silent if you are feeling so angry, feel so emotional, afterward, you may continue talk about it to find the solution together. Let's be happy! Cheer up!!!

So, have you feeling better? you may sharing your worry or story to me if you want.

Fix You

Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
'Cause you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
What could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

But high up above or down below
When you are too in love to let it show
Oh but if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Sincerely and Cheers,

Tika

Sensitif

Tidak terasa umur sudah 30-an...

Dulu waktu masih umur 20-an, kalau whatsapp di grup tidak ada yang respon pasti sedih, sensitif mulai hahaha sekarang sudah biasa saja, nothing to lose, ada yang balas bagus, tidak ada ya sudah, karena sekarang sudah berpikir, sudah mengerti dan sudah tahu bahwa semua orang punya kesibukan masing-masing.

Pernah tidak merasa sendirian karena dicuekin seperti itu? kalau saya sih pernah, sering malah tapi ya itu tadi saya akan mengulang kata-kata "semua orang punya kesibukan masing-masing, mungkin mereka lagi sibuk" sampai saya lupa dan menghilangkan rasa sedih.

OOT : gils, gue ngantuk banget sumpah, asli deh, padahal tidur ya 5 jam-an lah, harusnya cukup...ngantuk parahhh

5HINee World

Hi Yeorobun,

So, i become SHINee World (Shawol) recently. It's really fun, this is the first time i become fangirl hahaha gosh it's quite expensive tho..i still not yet buy the lightstick and photo box collection even i really want, because it's half pf million IDR! wuahhh seems all shawol must be rich..they buy anything for support their bias or idol, i still can't become that fanatic or great supporter like that, because i still thinking about saving money hahaha...

At first, i like Kai from Exo, he hypnotize me with his dance in 'Love Shot', then as i continue browsing about him, i found that he is SHINee's Taemin best friend (bff), i become like Taemin so much, his skin look so soft and glowing, his smile so pure and his sight look always so lovely to everyone, yes, he is so friendly, then as i goes browsing about him, i saw every clip of SHINee too, then i fall in love...i like them! i like their clips (MV), i like their dance, i like their song and above all i love all of their personalities (true colours).

I am quite sad because i am interest with them after Jonghyunnie passed away in December 18, 2017, i will pray for you Jonghyunnie and i will support SHINee member like you always did. Jonghyun oppa you did well...

As a newbie in Fangirling and a daughter from strict mom (hahaha) that not allowed attending any concert with or without friends so 5HINee or SHINee..i will always support youuu hwaiting!

Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Minho and Taemin...Bogoshipda..Sarang haeyoooo...Sarange!!!!!

The Theory of Ownership - A Thought

Insomnia happen again, so please let me share my thought tonight.

Pardon me if my english not good and so many mistake in grammar.

In psychology, ownership is the feeling that something is yours (red: Wikipedia).
In the abstract, property is that which belongs to or with something, whether as an attribute or as a component of said thing (red: Wikipedia).

When i was a child i really like read Donald Duck magazine, there is a story that not forgotten :

The Mayor of Duck City has really stress because no one of citizen want to taking care of the cleanliness and neatness of the city, every public facilities (bus, park, garbage can, etc) really fast get damage and so dirty. Then his staff and him get idea that every public facilities must have the owner, its still free and for public but its owned, for example: road lamp in front of a shop will be owned by the shop owner, they are free to change the colour of pillar, put flower surround it or etc but the electricity and lamp will be given by government, they only need to taking care of it as owner.

The result is really great! the owner will angry to the people that want to make dirty or harm the property (public facility) so every public facilities stay clean and in good condition then people get realize that they were do wrong so they are not do that again, i thought people will not care or still do the same because its like a habit, but it doesn't, everything has changed! its unpredictable for me as a child, but now, as i grow older, i realize, its The Theory of Ownership, because you feel that something is yours, so you do anything to make it always be yours, you don't want to lose it, you love, keep and care of it with well - because its your own property.

Now, i want to talk about working life not property, i am sure you ever read of these words : love your job or love what you do and do what you love or follow your passion then you will never have to work in another day and so on..i think, there is 1 more important thing in working life: do your task or work or be like you are a half of the owner, why? so you will more responsible with your job, do your task and handle your customer, why? thats not my company, that won't be my company, i'm only staff in there, for what i should so serious like that?
Let me explain, that company is the place for you to work, increase your knowledge and get money so if its bancrupt or not going smooth because you are not work well (1 person even he/she is only a typist or office boy/girl (cleaner) will always give impact to the business cycle, mind it! whatever your position, you are worthy!) do you think it will easy to get a new job? as easy as turning the palm of the hand? i'm sure your answer will be NO, so in working life you should consider the theory of ownership, if you consider it, you will be a honest person in workplace, work hard and handling your supplier and customer with well (conclusion is: full of responsibility) because you feel you are a half owner, as owner you have responsible to make everything going smooth, why you should do this? as a thankful attitude because you have a job, if you're not work well the business cycle will not good then company will bancrupt then you will lose your job, right? so mind it.
Until now, i still not understand why people do corruption, snab their co-worker from behind or steal company's stuff? day by day getting job is harder then why just not work well? to make everything fine, to live in peace and enjoy your life more, why?
How do you think? you may give comment and share your thought.
I pray all of us will be a good people, do kindness and work well.

-When you do more than you're paid for eventually you'll be paid for more than you do - Zig Ziglar

Cheers,

Sartika
  

Dreams and Reality

Today after i finished give tax reports to government office, i am going back to office,in lunch time i am continue watch 'Nana' its adapted from Anime story. So, in that movie there is a question by Nana to Nana (there r 2 girls in this story, both of them have name Nana)
"Nana,why cant dreams and reality bring happiness to our lives?"
Dreams...we ever dreams wanna do that..wanna b that..but we cant,bcoz of lack resources or must lose something..
have u ever heard,no sacrifice,no victory in Transformer movie?
i ask this question to agi,he ask me back :
"well tika,just thinking first,what makes you happy?
bcoz there is some people is really happy by having cheap ice cream and egg-tart."
Ah..maybe he wanna say..just b thankful with what we have...its quite same like Warren Buffet's word : find happiness inside you..

So Tika tell yourself to always thankful to God and b positive!

Ganbatte!

Puzzle Pieces

yeah jakarta's finest special collabo
the one and only miss wizzy
and myself, dave slick, lego

coba dari dulu bilang padaku
i love you, i love you

ini aku merindukanmu
i miss you, i miss you

and it's been so long
since our last goodbye
and it's still so strong
life could brings me back to you
brings me back to you, brings me back to you
life could brings me back to you
brings me back to you, brings me back to you tonight

you are my puzzle pieces, you are my puzzle pieces
you are my puzzle pieces, you are my puzzle pieces
ye eh eh eh you are my puzzle pieces (sing it baby girl)
ye eh eh eh you are my puzzle pieces (yeah)
ye eh eh eh you are my puzzle pieces
ye eh (that's right) eh eh you are my puzzle pieces
(say it to me baby girl)

repeat 2x

Its Puzzle Pieces - Ost Negeri Van Oranje, the singer is Wizzy, puzzle pieces not one piece ok (oh-cheap-joke pardon me)
i was listen this song while feel so bored doing tax reports..i've often feel bored lately, my foot wanna go somewhere that bring me new knowledge, new experience and new friend, which make laugh and more thankful coz im still alive till now.

Yeah..why i love this song because i feel so missing someone out there..but cant say it bcoz im scare to get hurt again..im scare of rejection..im scare to ruin our friendship so its better to me to silent and quit.
have u ever feel like that?

Hey there, i love you actually.

Sartika

MOURS

Abbreviation

So many abbreviations that i've found now for example :

YOLO : You Only Live Once hihi..i was thinking what is YOLO yolo yolo..?..its kinda kid's toy : Yoyo? hahaha..then BAPER..is indonesian abbreviation is BAwa PERasaan hahaa..means you are too sensitive..has sensitive feeling..Gosh..beside i should update with Tax Regulation for work..i should update with new abbreviation for my social life..because when we talk about something some of my friend really like using abbreviation..feels so old if i dont know the continuation from that word haha..

Manusia

Kenapa manusia bisa berubah?

people change like season..or because they've feel hurt,they change..or its kinda they act of adaptable?

Orang yang kita percaya bisa membohongi kita,memojokkan kita dan paling sering membicarakan kita dibelakang..demi untuk kesenangannya,melindungi dirinya atau agar kita tidak lebih dari mereka yang kita sendiri gak tahu apa lebih hebatnya kita dari mereka..

Manusia..sampai sekarang Saya tidak mau terlalu percaya lagi sama mereka.

Manusia

Manusia itu suka sekali kasih pendapat,saran,kritik tapi kelakuan dia sendiri tidak begitu..
ada juga manusia yang mau tahu saja urusan orang lalu banding-bandingin apa yang terjadi sama kita ke dirinya..
Ada lagi manusia yang suka besar-besarin masalah terus marah-marah saja kerjaannya..
Maunya apa toh?
haha

Teman

Teman,seringkali kita menolong teman kita sepenuh hati tetapi mereka malah memanfaatkan kita,meminta jantung kita atau bahkan menertawakan kita...seringkali disaat mereka sudah punya yang lain,mereka membandingkan kita,lupa dengan kita atau bahkan mau tahu saja urusan kita padahal kita tidak pernah komplain atau mau tahu urusan mereka kecuali jika mereka meminta pendapat atau bercerita kepada kita...
bagi saya..teman yang seperti itu..hanya saya anggap masa lalu..sudah saya delete dari hidup saya yang sekarang dan saya berdoa..apa pun yang terjadi,kami tidak akan bertemu lagi, Amin.

Di atas awan

"Jika kamu memang yang terbaik,tanpa kamu beritahukan ke orang-orang pun, orang-orang tersebut sudah tahu kamu yang terbaik"

Saya bukan bercerita tentang negeri di atas awan..bukan cerita pemandangan di atas awan yang seperti di cerita 5 cm..saya berbicara tentang manusia yang sudah merasa di atas awan...

Saat ini banyak sekali manusia yang merasa di atas awan..karena dia hebat..pintar..banyak uang..dia pikir dia sudah bisa membeli semuanya..membeli manusia..harga diri..perasaan..loyalitas...mempermainkan orang-orang yang membutuhkannya karena dia punya semuanya..tapi tidak ada yang kekal..apalagi jika itu kejahatan...u play drama..u will get karma..Allah maha adil..saya yakin balasan Allah lebih baik daripada kita sendiri yang membalas..dan semoga setelah mendapat balasan Allah..dia menjadi sadar...Amin

Tetapi..hati yang tersakiti..walau sudah memaafkan..tidak akan bisa lagi kembali sama seperti dulu..say hello and go..itu saja cukup..percakapan panjang lebar? maaf..tidak akan ada lagi.

Salam Sukses,

Sartika

Tata Tertib Lalu Lintas

Bangsa Indonesia gimana gak susah maju..orang sukanya ngikutin yang buruk, serba protes dan tidak tertib..contoh aja kalau lagi nunggu pergantian lampu merah, bawaannya pada nyerobot, yang lain nyerobot, yang lain ngikut..keroyokan..kalau hampir nabrak atau ketabrak gara-gara nyerobot..marah-marah..ngeluarin kata-kata gak sopan...giliran macet gara-gara kejadian itu..protes...yang disalahin Pemerintah..itu..bangsa Indonesia sekarang begitu..gak menghargai susah payahnya perjuangan para Pejuang di jaman dahulu..hal ini baru saja kejadian di perempatan lampu merah Galaxy Bekasi yang ada Superindonya itu..jelas-jelas ada polisi..udah lampu hijau..eh tuh angkot yang hampir nabrak gue malah marah2 ke gue...tapi gue diemin aja..kenapa? karena begitulah orang gak berpendidikan dan low class..jadi saya gak mau tuh kebawa emosi dan memperlama kemacetan gara-gara dia..sudah kerjaannya low class dimata manusia, kelakuannya ikut minus juga..sungguh kasihan...semoga dia diberi hidayah Amin.

Salam Sukses,

Sartika

KamuAkuSatu

Saya lagi suka sama lagu Tulus yang judulnya Sepatu

Kita adalah sepasang sepatu
Selalu bersama tak bisa bersatu
Kita mati bagai tak berjiwa
Bergerak karena kaki manusia

Aku sang sepatu kanan
Kamu sang sepatu kiri
Ku senang bila diajak berlari kencang
Tapi aku takut kamu kelelahan
Ku tak masalah bila terkena hujan
Tapi aku takut kamu kedinginan

Kita sadar ingin bersama
Tapi tak bisa apa-apa
Terasa lengkap bila kita berdua
Terasa sedih bila kita di rak berbeda
Di dekatmu kotak bagai nirwana
Tapi saling sentuh pun kita tak berdaya

Cinta memang banyak bentuknya
Mungkin tak semua bisa bersatu


Kata Pak Mario Teguh..gak ada tuh yang namanya 'cinta tak harus memiliki', yang namanya cinta ya harus memiliki..kalau cinta tak bersatu berarti bukan jodoh...

Rindu

Rindu...
Rindu ini melilit hati...seperti perut yang teramat sangat menginginkan nasi saat sedang lapar...
Rindu...
Rindu ini menusuk kalbu...seperti tenggorokan yang ingin dilewati air ketika dahaga...
Rindu...
Rindu ini menekan batin...seperti tangan yang ingin meraih bintang yang dapat dilihat..tapi tak dapat disentuh...
Rindu...kapankah rindu ini bisa menghilang...?

"i'll be missing u so much..what should i do...?"
"just be with me..and never be sad..."

Rindu...
Bila saja rindu dapat menjelma menjadi mimpi tentang dirimu setiap malam..
mungkin tidak akan menyesakkan dada seperti ini..
Rindu...
Aku.Rindu.Kamu

"hi dear..i miss u..."
"i miss u too...more than u..."
"Really?"
"Yes..i'll prove it when we're together later..."
"When?"
"Soon"
"Ameen"
"Ameen"
"will u wait for me?"
"yes..i'll wait for u"
"Ok,please trust me,i'll do my best"
"ok..i trust u..."

Cerita..entah pendek entah panjang...

"hi"
Itulah kata pertama yang dia kirimkan kepada saya berkali-kali...
Stranger..
Saya tidak pernah berbicara dengan orang yang tidak saya kenal sebelumnya maka saya mengacuhkannya..
"hi"
"hello"
"hi"
Selalu setiap saya sedang membuka situs social network itu, dia menyapa saya, padahal saya sedang tidak online, jadi bagaimana bisa dia tahu saya sedang berada disitu dan menyapa saya...
Tetap saja saya acuhkan..
Sampai suatu ketika..saya sedang penat dengan pekerjaan..maka saya membuka situs social network tersebut dan kembali lagi ada...
"hi"
Obat penat/kejenuhan adalah melakukan sesuatu yang baru maka tanpa pikir panjang lagi..
"hi"
"finally, u reply me..i'm so happy.."
so happy? whatever lah..yang penting saya lagi butuh penghilang penat saat ini...
maka obrolan kami berlanjut..
dia menanyakan nama panggilan saya..
dia bertanya hobi saya apa..
saya lagi apa..
dan kami berbagi judul film favorit...
dia tahu saya menyukai film action maka dia mengirimkan link untuk mendownload film action yang menurut dia bagus... Arrow... yang sampai saat ini film tersebut belum saya download karena entah kenapa kalau sudah sampai kantor saya lupa/malas untuk mendownloadnya...hahaha...
Hal-hal kecil bisa menjadi besar..seperti sungai yang bermuara ke laut...(apa coba?)
dari satu kata "hi" sekarang berubah menjadi obrolan panjang setiap hari....
Terima kasih telah menyapa saya dengan "hi" tanpa lelah padahal sudah saya acuhkan berkali-kali...
Semoga pertemanan ini akan berlangsung selamanya...

-Manusia membutuhkan seseorang yang tidak akan meninggalkan dia dalam keadaan apa pun...serumit apa pun kejiwaan kita..dia tidak pernah meninggalkan kita...dia mengubah perasaan insecure menjadi secure (#blahhh hahaha..)-

Salam Sukses,

Sartika